Fears
January 13, 2022 § 1 Comment
In the land of Death and Glory
The jukim rule.
All hail the jukim,
Here before we were
And will be there
Long after.
Yarzheit
January 11, 2022 § 1 Comment
For a moment you lit up the world, again,
And then you were gone.
The only spark that finds the path of least resistance within me.
To my grandmother, may her memory always be a pearl earring
January 5, 2022 § Leave a comment
For as many stars line the skies,
There shall you be, my mothers,
My grandmothers, my great-grandmothers.
There shall you be,
A star for every wandering Jew
And each of their daughters too.
Would it not be easier to close your eyes,
Than to dim the light of a thousands stars, a million miles from your shores?
There we shine, there we shall always shine.
Honestly
December 10, 2021 § Leave a comment
The truth will not set you free.
It will start a fire inside of you. It will devour your dreams, make you hate yourself and humanity, and isolate you to the point of exhaustion.
At all costs, lie. Lies are the only thing which will soften your landing.
And trust me, at some point you are bound to fall.
Forget meaning
December 4, 2021 § Leave a comment
In search of quietude,
I found the war again.
This endless horror of the mind
Convincing itself of the rational
For this death circus.
Home II
December 4, 2021 § Leave a comment
I was raised in a valley
Where the pure water never passed my lips.
Why am I in this hell
A land of never peace.
No rest for the wicked here.
Home
December 4, 2021 § 3 Comments
I wonder if I will ever see you again
My heart, my home.
To walk down the lane when the skies have freshly cleared
To watch to sea tickling the horizon
Breathe in your honeysuckle
Where the wild roses grow
And the sweet bees nuzzle
The wise horses tolerate your gaze.
My heart is full of grief for you
My dear and only love.
A funny thought
December 3, 2021 § Leave a comment
Your name is never Life.
You came to me as though in a dream.
You asked about miracles- whether they had all been used up.
I told you, step away from the wall. This is my place. Nobody told you to scream my name here, to throw your salty tears at me.
I’m grieving too, I mourned my people seven days, I warned them eight.
Don’t I too have a right to be alone here, and cry out, misery? Don’t I too have the right to shake my charity cup and threaten the children?
I’m keeping a cool head, but it’s not easy, being Ein Sof and Ein Od at the same time. I wish you would allow me to sleep for one day, and that the physics of reason would prevail.
Then, only then.
Socrates
November 23, 2021 § Leave a comment
A sunset-
The beginning of wisdom?
Or a means to an end.
Bring on the dawn, the day, the toil and trouble, boil and bubble.
Know thyself or thine enemies?
Socrates, meet William.
Seeing
November 19, 2021 § Leave a comment
I spoke my truth in this lifetime
Despite it not being in my best interests.
The first rains bring me back.
I am in London, looking up into the grey skylight.
There has been no sunlight for nine days.
We are surviving.
Every hour is agony.
Being alive is to be consumed with pain.
The chronic pain takes away my natural tolerance for stories.
Half truths.
I thought it was you, you were the problem.
In fact, it was my mother
Who brought me into this drama
Who let it play out
Like this.
Gently dangerous.
Did you know that every egg inside your ovaries was generated
When you were still inside her?
That kind of expectant stillness.
Four months, they say.
Sixteen weeks.
She was already in the business of grandchildren.
Now it’s your problem.
You get to decide
Whether you are in, or out.