Fears

January 13, 2022 § 1 Comment

In the land of Death and Glory

The jukim rule.

All hail the jukim,

Here before we were

And will be there

Long after.

Yarzheit

January 11, 2022 § 1 Comment

For a moment you lit up the world, again,

And then you were gone.

The only spark that finds the path of least resistance within me.

To my grandmother, may her memory always be a pearl earring

January 5, 2022 § Leave a comment

For as many stars line the skies,

There shall you be, my mothers,

My grandmothers, my great-grandmothers.

There shall you be,

A star for every wandering Jew

And each of their daughters too.

Would it not be easier to close your eyes,

Than to dim the light of a thousands stars, a million miles from your shores?

There we shine, there we shall always shine.

Honestly

December 10, 2021 § Leave a comment

The truth will not set you free.

It will start a fire inside of you. It will devour your dreams, make you hate yourself and humanity, and isolate you to the point of exhaustion.


At all costs, lie. Lies are the only thing which will soften your landing.

And trust me, at some point you are bound to fall.

Forget meaning

December 4, 2021 § Leave a comment

In search of quietude,

I found the war again.

This endless horror of the mind

Convincing itself of the rational

For this death circus.

Home II

December 4, 2021 § Leave a comment

I was raised in a valley

Where the pure water never passed my lips.

Why am I in this hell

A land of never peace.

No rest for the wicked here.

Home

December 4, 2021 § 3 Comments

I wonder if I will ever see you again

My heart, my home.

To walk down the lane when the skies have freshly cleared

To watch to sea tickling the horizon

Breathe in your honeysuckle

Where the wild roses grow

And the sweet bees nuzzle

The wise horses tolerate your gaze.

My heart is full of grief for you

My dear and only love.

A funny thought

December 3, 2021 § Leave a comment

Your name is never Life.

You came to me as though in a dream.

You asked about miracles- whether they had all been used up.

I told you, step away from the wall. This is my place. Nobody told you to scream my name here, to throw your salty tears at me.

I’m grieving too, I mourned my people seven days, I warned them eight.

Don’t I too have a right to be alone here, and cry out, misery? Don’t I too have the right to shake my charity cup and threaten the children?

I’m keeping a cool head, but it’s not easy, being Ein Sof and Ein Od at the same time. I wish you would allow me to sleep for one day, and that the physics of reason would prevail.

Then, only then.

Socrates

November 23, 2021 § Leave a comment

A sunset-

The beginning of wisdom?

Or a means to an end.

Bring on the dawn, the day, the toil and trouble, boil and bubble.

Know thyself or thine enemies?

Socrates, meet William.

Seeing

November 19, 2021 § Leave a comment

I spoke my truth in this lifetime

Despite it not being in my best interests.

The first rains bring me back.

I am in London, looking up into the grey skylight.

There has been no sunlight for nine days.

We are surviving.

Every hour is agony.

Being alive is to be consumed with pain.

The chronic pain takes away my natural tolerance for stories.

Half truths.

I thought it was you, you were the problem.

In fact, it was my mother

Who brought me into this drama

Who let it play out

Like this.

Gently dangerous.

Did you know that every egg inside your ovaries was generated

When you were still inside her?

That kind of expectant stillness.

Four months, they say.

Sixteen weeks.

She was already in the business of grandchildren.

Now it’s your problem.

You get to decide

Whether you are in, or out.