Witness

I am forever to be trapped in the body that is the body

That you did that to

The most horrific

Thing

Why?

But no

No.

There are no ways

To explain away evil

Evil goes where evil is

Evil is as evil does

Evil is evil

Leave the body

Now

Let it go

Retreat into the mind

Where your beautiful soul

A butterfly

Quivers

Physician

In my prehistoric old age

I am a queen of nothing

And empress only of emotions.

The only title I hold is ‘doctor’.

My prehistoric timeline does not respect its worth.

Fears

In the land of Death and Glory

The jukim rule.

All hail the jukim,

Here before we were

And will be there

Long after.

Yarzheit

For a moment you lit up the world, again,

And then you were gone.

The only spark that finds the path of least resistance within me.

To my grandmother, may her memory always be a pearl earring

For as many stars line the skies,

There shall you be, my mothers,

My grandmothers, my great-grandmothers.

There shall you be,

A star for every wandering Jew

And each of their daughters too.

Would it not be easier to close your eyes,

Than to dim the light of a thousands stars, a million miles from your shores?

There we shine, there we shall always shine.

Honestly

The truth will not set you free.

It will start a fire inside of you. It will devour your dreams, make you hate yourself and humanity, and isolate you to the point of exhaustion.

At all costs, lie. Lies are the only thing which will soften your landing.

And trust me, at some point you are bound to fall.

Forget meaning

In search of quietude,

I found the war again.

This endless horror of the mind

Convincing itself of the rational

For this death circus.

Home II

I was raised in a valley

Where the pure water never passed my lips.

Why am I in this hell

A land of never peace.

No rest for the wicked here.

Home

I wonder if I will ever see you again

My heart, my home.

To walk down the lane when the skies have freshly cleared

To watch to sea tickling the horizon

Breathe in your honeysuckle

Where the wild roses grow

And the sweet bees nuzzle

The wise horses tolerate your gaze.

My heart is full of grief for you

My dear and only love.

A funny thought

Your name is never Life.

You came to me as though in a dream.

You asked about miracles- whether they had all been used up.

I told you, step away from the wall. This is my place. Nobody told you to scream my name here, to throw your salty tears at me.

I’m grieving too, I mourned my people seven days, I warned them eight.

Don’t I too have a right to be alone here, and cry out, misery? Don’t I too have the right to shake my charity cup and threaten the children?

I’m keeping a cool head, but it’s not easy, being Ein Sof and Ein Od at the same time. I wish you would allow me to sleep for one day, and that the physics of reason would prevail.

Then, only then.